It has been a weekend filled with mixed emotions of sadness and nervousness. I flew to North Carolina with my family to commemorate my grandfather, who had passed away about a month ago. Flying down to North Carolina and spending time with my grandmother and cousins just did not feel the same, there was a certain emptiness, a feeling that which I can not explain. There is so much more that I could have possibly written about my grandfather, but at this time, not much comes to my mind. It would make a good journal entry in a little while, but not now.